Roman coin depicting Fides, minted 2nd century CE Source: romanmint.com |
One of my first posts on this blog, nearly
five years ago, was about the question of faith. It turns out this has been
amongst the more popular of my posts. In it I essentially make the case for
leaving faith out of my religious perspective. In one of the more articulate
passages I wrote:
“Faith does not make anything true, it just makes something feel more true while at the same time abrogating one's ability to ask all possible questions and to be open to all possible answers.”
When I wrote this my mother had been dead
for less than a year. Her long illness (cancer) and death was profoundly
traumatic for me and part of that experience was made up of her elder sisters,
both devout Christians, coercing, persuading, and generally doing all that they could to
convert her before she died. As she edged closer to death she began to fear the
prospect of hell, without definitively converting, and it disturbed her peace
of mind in her final months. For this reason I went through a phase of disliking Christianity and, to me, “faith” was a term irrevocably linked to it. I associated faith inextricably with the word that
often precedes it – blind. The notion
of faith seemed like (to me at the time) a dodgy trick by which people were lured into believing untrue things based on the flimsiest
of evidence.* Fast-forward a few years and things have a
changed somewhat. I can now look at faith
without the caustic afterglow brought about by my previous antipathy to Christian beliefs.